Archive for June, 2008

Counting Blessings [Part 1]

Posted in livelovewhatever on June 28, 2008 by glaize

One, two, three…

Another soul set free…

“Over here, young one.” The man in white cassock beckoned the girl to follow him. He held her hand and led her down the marble-stoned road. There were others like him watching as they passed. They waved, some bowed but all in friendly smiles. Their eyes followed the couple as they walked by, greeting them in their humblest gesture. The air felt familiar. But for a moment there, the girl felt a shiver. Where in the seven heavens was she? There was something about the place which made her uncomfortable at first. She stopped for a moment and looked around…

Not far from where she stood was a big book, floating in the air, above a 4ft. pedestal. The man nodded at her. “Go ahead,” he said. Curious, she walked towards it and stepped on the small stairs to have a look. The pages flipped as she approached, revealing names she knew and names that were strangers to her. These names, they had small icons next to them. The girl shrugged. A very peculiar book indeed, she thought. She stepped down and returned to the man who was waiting for her.

“What was that all about?” she asked. Her hand was holding his. For some reason, she didn’t want to let go. “I will explain later,” he replied. “By the way Emma, I am Raphael.” The girl looked at the man. “How did you know my name?”

“Oh, I’ve known you since the day you were born.”

“You did? Are we related?”

“In a way, you can say we are,” smiled Raphael.

Raphael led her to a fountain. Emma stared at the waters. “Something wrong?” asked Raphael. Emma shook her head. “It’s just that I know this place, this fountain…”

“I see…you’ve come here before I assume?”

“Perhaps…”

They sat down on the edges. Emma scanned her surroundings. The people walking in cassocks were very friendly with each other. Whenever they happened to turn at the fountain, they would smile. Emma smiled back, though she was feeling uneasy inside. A young girl approached them and sat herself next to Emma. In the next few minutes they chatted away as if they have known each other for a long, long time.

“I heard you came from a crazy place out there. How do you find it here?” the girl asked.

“I don’t know…where I came from, it was pretty normal to me. I don’t seem fit in this place,” Emma replied.

“Oh, but don’t you just love it here? I mean, that place of yours, it’s just crazy,” the girl giggled.

“Hahaha…” that was all Emma could say. The girl told her they would meet again later and left. A firefly fluttered passes Emma’s eyes. Not believing what she was seeing, she blinked but the fluttering bug was there still, its light flickering in daylight. She turned to Raphael but decided to keep quiet when she saw him reading a book.

Time passed slowly. It was an equinox. The moon rose in the beautiful night sky, its amber glow radiating a warm feeling. There was a table set for four by the nearby lake. Thanks to the moonlight, Emma could make out the moving figures. One was a tall, lean woman. As she sat, she tossed back her hair in a sassy style. She was having a good time with her friends. She was laughing her heads off with them. Emma thought she was nuts. How someone can have a wonderful time in such a weird place, she wondered. “Don’t worry, she is sane all right. She just loves her friends.” Raphael whispered in her ear. Her friends – one of them was a rather chubby guy. His eyes were a glowing beauty. The other two were twins. They looked so alike as if they were looking in the mirror. One was serene though, and the other was rather talkative. Emma smiled. Something was playing in her mind but she can’t seem to figure out what it was.

“Say, Raphael…”

“Yes?”

“What are you reading?”

“Huh? Oh, this book? It’s a journal, my dear…”

“You keep journals?”

“I do. Keeping one is a good self-therapy. But this is not mine. It belongs to a friend. A friend named Enreal. Want to have a look?”

Emma nodded. “Does karma truly exist?” she asked all of a sudden. Raphael looked at her. He smiled again. “Well, karma is the term your people believe in. Here, it’s simply a thanksgiving, a sign you are grateful for those who have been good to you. You return their kindness.”

“And what about those that weren’t good to you?”

“That is the authority of the Almighty. Vengeance is not an option for us.”

“But from where I come from, some people do it all the time…the vengeance thing…”

“In time they will know…they will learn sooner or later. Just steer out of the way. It is bad for your soul.”

“Raphael…”

“Not know, young one. Come, you must sleep. It’s getting late. I’ll tour you around in the morning, okay?”

Raphael stood and held her by the hand. As they walked away from the fountain, Emma took one last look at it. There was a man sitting in Raphael’s place. He smiled at her. Reading his lips, Emma figured he wished her a good night.

…to be continued

(AI) Wake-up Call

Posted in livelovewhatever on June 23, 2008 by glaize

I was fleeting in Paradise
Playing silly games along the way
Oblivious to the obvious

Came upon a wishing well
How many times have I come by here?
Tossing coins for wishes I don’t know
Possible to come true

I’d sit for a while
Wishing for just one thing
Over and over again
Sometimes I feel silly doing so

Like a child I saw you
Was curious of you
Wanted to learn all about you
Now I’m telling me “I told you so”

You taught me love and how it feels
Preached the world to me and everything
You taught me hurt and its remedies
You’re my wake-up call
In this fleeting haven

You taught me how human I was
That I’m one of billions out there
Well, yeah I can agree with you on that
I’m one of billions, I always will be
Will be me like no one else can be

You taught me jealousy and its cure
Taught me now I should say amen
To forget everything and live on
To forgive anyone like I haven’t before
You’re my wake-up call

You helped me brave the mountains I sigh upon
And the oceans I’d dare not swim in
Taught me to let things go
And just be me
Never mind where the current flows

Yes you, you taught so many things
Taught me about Mister Life
And how he goes in his own way
Taught me to follow him in my own way
You’re my wake-up call

…but you
Why are you so hard to reach?
Why are you closing down on yourself?
Why can’t I get through you?
You’re my wake-up call
…and I want to be yours too

It’s an offer I never thought I’d make
It’s the most expensive thing I’ll ever put on my shelves
Along with it comes everything else
And I’m back at the wishing well

I want you but I want me too
I want to learn to live
Then again
I’d rather not leave my corner
I just couldn’t make up my mind

Reality
Tell me what’s real
When you don’t seem to be
Fantasy
Tell me what I fantasize on
When you’re right in front of me

Like a child I saw you
Wanted to have what I see
But Mister Life’s being cruel to me
Tagged me behind Sister Love
Now I’m following like a fool

I want you but I want me too
You taught me so many things
I taught me so too
Just couldn’t decide who
To follow, me or you

You’re my wake-up call
In this blinded world
I wanted to be your wake-up call
So I’m back at the wishing well

…and the Journey Continues

Posted in livelovewhatever on June 21, 2008 by glaize

Her eyes reread what Sr. Margherita has written in her letter. “You have grown and more mature, there is really a change in your outlook of Life.” That has certainly carved a smile on her face. A smile in her soul.

Emma smiled because she knew it. She felt it. From the moment she realized she was in love she knew something has changed, something that she disregarded so many times before. It was that something she has taken for granted. And that something was Life – Life was transformed overnight. Life has changed so much from the moment she realized she was in love.

The nun’s words repeated in her mind. “I know,” she whispered to herself. It was like magic, a simple magic. It was the typical case of ‘Girl meets Boy’ except that in this case there is one special guest, Mister Life.

Clicking through her previous entries, Emma reread them and gave her soul a gentle pat. What words could possibly convey how she feels at the moment? Or at any other moment, to be exact. In these past few months, she was strengthened. Emma was taking the baby steps of understanding the mysteries and wonders of Life and its Creator.

Meanwhile, Gabriel stood quietly by her bedroom door while she was at the computer. His eyes were calm…sad…as he remembered his brother’s words not so long ago. They will grow up. They always do. And by then, it would be too late… Gabriel tried to shake his mind off Luc’s words. He wanted to tell her how he feels but he doesn’t have the heart to. The little girl he came to know when she was two has matured. Or at least she has been threading on the right path. But how can he tell her he was afraid? Afraid that in time, he will have to leave. In time Emma won’t need her Guardians anymore and they will be sent home. How could he tell her that when all this while he kept on telling her to be strong?

Emma paused. She knew Gabriel was watching her. She knew because she “created” him. Gabriel knew Emma noticed him – and his 1000 questions’ look. “You know, Gabe…” she turned around. “I might have grown up; growing still but I need you here. I’m not so good in making friends outside because, well, I’m afraid. You know why, don’t you?”

Gabriel nodded.

“So you see…for someone like me, like myself, I need you here. I need you to be the voice in my head, in my mind. I need you to keep me in balance. I will never throw you aside, not after all that you’ve done for me.”

Gabriel nodded again. And he smiled the smile Emma rarely saw these days. She realized she has spent less time with the Guardians, with Gabriel but she knew they’d understand. They do.

That’s why they’re still hanging around her…

…and Emma will want them near always.

It was at moments such as this that Caine would appear in Emma’s mind. In this moment, once again she would feel the peaceful touch of his words and kind eyes.

It was at moments such as this that she would be more than forever grateful to be in love.

…the Road ahead is still worth travelling down, with a backpack full of Love and a soul who has seen the Light, accompanied with three gentle Guardians and a guy, another soul so kind and gentle, walking side by side. Maybe not hand in hand but he will always be at her side. He always has been.

Yes, girl, meet Mister Life.

Now you know where you’re going.