…now then, I don’t usually do this but the blogosphere has really helped me with Life, thanks to all the wonderful, beautiful souls out there that have reached out their invisible hands to me. I reflect on their posts, on the ones I could relate to. I’ll be linking to these posts through (AR)s or “My Reflections” entries. Make sure to read them if you have the time. Big hugs to them all!
On Amber’s “SOTD - Calling All Angels”, I see pretty much of myself. I see pretty much of everyone else. It is true that we face all those negativities in our lives…and we all have our own ways of dealing with them. Like Amber, I’d turn to Music… I’m a global listener but certain songs, certain genres sing louder to my soul than the rest. I’m sure it is the same for some of you too. And it’s not just because they’re singing my story but they also made me think.
To be frank, my life’s stained – maybe not much but there are still stains. Before all that had happened to me, before LLW, before Caine, I am a lost soul - lost, mute and deaf. I thought I was who I was back then. I failed to find my own voice, speechless all the time. I was deaf to the cries of others, to my own cries. I once stood cold though I pretended to be mushy inside out. I couldn’t tell anyone who I am really…because I don’t know myself.
Music helped me. Words are the cells of my life. Through songs I hear stories of my life. Through the lyrics I see the stories of my life. And they made me think…I reflected. Then I’d write. Music and Writing, how I owe them much! With each second I figured myself out. When Caine came I was renewed, my soul refreshed. Through music and writing I tried to speak to the Lord. I tried to because I realized I needed Him when the world lets me down. This is why I am on the road of self-rediscovery, discovering the buried self that was hidden too long under layers of masks too many to count.
If you believe in angels, call out to yours and you will get an answer if you’d listen.
I did.
